Journal 48, page 48

Villars sur Ollon-3 hours above Aigle

We consented to stay-is is a "boofulum" grassy treey [?] place nearly 4,000 ft up-near Lausanne, Geneve & folks-easy of access & not 30 pounds per week as poor Cossie has been paying but about L12-nice, simple French & Germans with whom we have no dealings- families-lots of cute children about & such a splendid St Bernarder! Saw target shaped like Napoleon I-nailed on front of chalet man[?] who won in shooting match over [?] this target. Revenges of history! No wonder the Swiss like N-the Great for a target! [N actually underlined twice] But what an awful commentary [... ] 100 yrs [.......] perspective on his work in the world. We come & we go-[?] we make our [......].-we are world-stuff & part of the Zeit-Gheist--How much more?

August 13, 1893

idle [...... .........] day-sat about-went to "Chalet Somerset-as we have [......] beauty that C. declares she shall [....]. Letters from home-people sitting about-diligences coming & going-children playing tennis-groups of peasants dancing-the Puritan Sunday to which my own Father was devoted as gone &dead as the clouds that brooded over Forest Home. But some "set" is in my brain that hallows it though I have long th[ought?] we were too literal in our interpretation& leaned too much to the Old Testament view.

Went to walk with C.& Nan to Epis. service-which I cannot abide. N. says genuflexions [... ...]grotesque[?].

August 14, 1893

Sitting on Cossie's balcony to get a sun bath. Goggles on our eyeglasses; Lips far[...] out to cold sores; general feeling of lassitude. In night was low in my mind about immortality& had a talk with dear comforting C. who came& warmed me up. Who should despair with 2 such blessed& lovely friends as she &my Little Nan? Somehow I seem to myself like a dog who has lost his bone-work was my bone& a meaty one I found it.-My two say I must not go home to the Convention, that I have gained so little- Exposition, silver crisis&-&c absorb everything& convention will not be crucial this year-I lost all I had gained by insisting on going last year &c-.

August 15, 1893

Cossie was not well& decided to wait a day before goiong to her Mother. We rose late & sat about & sunned ourselves & didn't go down tairs. We read no end& wrote important letters &the dear patient one had her fearful headache. She says it never came till as a sequel of her griefs with Lord Henry but for 8 years thereafter she had it about once in 10 days-that she has given a ball& left it every few minutes to vomit-for this is a feature right